We are like peas and carrots

"In your life, you meet people. Some you never think about again. Some, you wonder what happened to them. There are some that you wonder if they ever think about you. And then there are some you wish you never had to think about again. But you do.”

Picture this: 20 something brunette woman, sitting in seat 12A on a flight home to dallas. She looks tired and nervous, she leans back in her seat and slides on her head phones and scrolls through her iPod. She leans her head against the window starring blankly at the mountains sprawled under her. The wheels in her head are turning as she listens to songs all about love, loneliness, relationships, etc. sparking memories and thoughts of her past...

So that 20 something brunette was me on a flight back home from San Francisco last night. P.S. American Airlines sucks. I went to San Francisco for a little getaway and it was fantastic. The city is so full of diversity and life. You can feel the energy of the people surround and sink into you. I have a habit of people-watching and I watched plenty of people on my trip. A little detail, I was there over valentines day weekend. I was surrounded by couples in love. But I didn't just notice all the couples I noticed all the groups of friends, families, coworkers, strangers, all together in one great city. While watching all these people and their relationships with one another, it made me think about mine.

It sounds so cliche right? Me, music, airplane window, plus a little bit of a lonely feeling. Put that all together and you get me linking memories with every song I hear for the next 3 hours. I hear the band sick puppies and think of an ex of mine who I haven't even spoken to in a couple years. He is getting married soon. Throw in some N'Sync and I remember being a silly young girl with my friends Lindsey and Heather. Heather and I still see each other. A heavy metal song that makes me think of another ex. My first love who I only speak to when he calls me. He is also getting married soon.

Have you ever sat down and thought about your relationships? Past and present? In a way it made me happy, to reminicse about the times I have shared with people in my life so far. On the other hand it made me a little melancholy. A lot of the people I share great memories with I don't even speak to anymore. It made me think about the relationships I have now. When I move will these people still talk to me? How much do others really value my friendship/ love? I have been questioning a lot of the people I have in my life presently. Are they really my "true" friends, or are they the friends I have fun with but can't really talk to about anything pertaining to serious things in my life? Not to say I don't enjoy the people I surround myself with but I realized I can really only think of about 3 people I really trust. That could also be because I have a bit of a trust issue.

I think it is important for people to sit down and really look at the relationships in your life. Are they what you want them to be? Are they healthy? Fun? Meaningful? Lasting? Could you rekindle some past friendships? Are there people you could kick off the island? All these questions were going through my mind as I stared out into the black sky coming home. As I was coming home to my relationships.

Let the mission begin!

Yes people I have a new mission. If you know me you know I have a new plan/mission, whatever you want to call it, every week it seems like. Well today it gets serious!

I decided to go back to college this semester. A little history of my college career...I went to Univ. of Arkansas, left and went to UNT for 3 semesters, had a life freak out and left and decided to go to school to gain my esthetician license. After slacking I finally went and took my last test for my license and passed with a 97 of course! But I thought that going back to get my degree would be a good idea. So not really knowing what or why I was going back I just signed up for 2 classes. Oh P.S., I HATE school. Not because I'm not smart, I am just not an academic person. Oh and an ADD person. Thank the universe for my Ritalin. Anyway, I am finally an official licensed esthetician! Facial or waxing anyone?

Last weekend I went to visit a friend in Austin. She and I went to school together and she works in a great spa there in Austin. I love Austin. It is the perfect city for me. Easy going, liberal, a few weirdos here and there. Pretty much sums me up.

So I know you are just dying to know "Allison, what is this new mission you speak of?! I must know!" Well ladies and gents...I am moving to Austin to pursue my career in ethetics. I am moving out of my current house in may and will be staying with my mama to save some much needed dinero. However, if the perfect job comes before then, Austin here I come! This is the first time I have been so excited to start something new in my life. I love change and moving to a new city is EXACTLY what I need right now. So, as of today I am already somewhat job hunting and saving my "much needed dinero." My Mama is even encouraging me to go now, but I am not going to bail out my my lease I have now. So there it is. New mission: Get my booty to Austin, has launched!

Oh and yes, I did drop my classes this semester. Don't judge me! Be happy for me that I finally have an awesome path that I am determined to follow!