We are like peas and carrots

"In your life, you meet people. Some you never think about again. Some, you wonder what happened to them. There are some that you wonder if they ever think about you. And then there are some you wish you never had to think about again. But you do.”

Picture this: 20 something brunette woman, sitting in seat 12A on a flight home to dallas. She looks tired and nervous, she leans back in her seat and slides on her head phones and scrolls through her iPod. She leans her head against the window starring blankly at the mountains sprawled under her. The wheels in her head are turning as she listens to songs all about love, loneliness, relationships, etc. sparking memories and thoughts of her past...

So that 20 something brunette was me on a flight back home from San Francisco last night. P.S. American Airlines sucks. I went to San Francisco for a little getaway and it was fantastic. The city is so full of diversity and life. You can feel the energy of the people surround and sink into you. I have a habit of people-watching and I watched plenty of people on my trip. A little detail, I was there over valentines day weekend. I was surrounded by couples in love. But I didn't just notice all the couples I noticed all the groups of friends, families, coworkers, strangers, all together in one great city. While watching all these people and their relationships with one another, it made me think about mine.

It sounds so cliche right? Me, music, airplane window, plus a little bit of a lonely feeling. Put that all together and you get me linking memories with every song I hear for the next 3 hours. I hear the band sick puppies and think of an ex of mine who I haven't even spoken to in a couple years. He is getting married soon. Throw in some N'Sync and I remember being a silly young girl with my friends Lindsey and Heather. Heather and I still see each other. A heavy metal song that makes me think of another ex. My first love who I only speak to when he calls me. He is also getting married soon.

Have you ever sat down and thought about your relationships? Past and present? In a way it made me happy, to reminicse about the times I have shared with people in my life so far. On the other hand it made me a little melancholy. A lot of the people I share great memories with I don't even speak to anymore. It made me think about the relationships I have now. When I move will these people still talk to me? How much do others really value my friendship/ love? I have been questioning a lot of the people I have in my life presently. Are they really my "true" friends, or are they the friends I have fun with but can't really talk to about anything pertaining to serious things in my life? Not to say I don't enjoy the people I surround myself with but I realized I can really only think of about 3 people I really trust. That could also be because I have a bit of a trust issue.

I think it is important for people to sit down and really look at the relationships in your life. Are they what you want them to be? Are they healthy? Fun? Meaningful? Lasting? Could you rekindle some past friendships? Are there people you could kick off the island? All these questions were going through my mind as I stared out into the black sky coming home. As I was coming home to my relationships.